My REAL Black Story

God made me who I am.
I am nothing but clay that was made in the color of
rich dark soil that grows the food I eat and that’s
the Word of God.

It clearly explains why He’s the reason for everything.
God planted a seed of faith in my heart, so all I have to do
is use my tears to water it with my prayers, fertilize it with
God’s word, and cultivate it with lots of love.

But that doesn’t stop there.

God also made me in the color of coal where diamonds
are formed beautifully. He has all the power to use time and
pressure because that’s His way of trying to get the BEST out of Me!

God didn’t create me in the image of darkness:
He created me in the image of HIM!!!

I am black and beautiful,O daughters of Jerusalem, Do not gaze at me because I am dark, because the sun has looked upon me.
-Song of Solomon 1:5&6


Am I Ready to Become a Godly Wife???? Confession of a Single Woman

Honestly, there were times when I thought that I was ready to be a wife simply because I was desperate to get out of my comfort zone and be like the other girls who have done many things on their own just to have a happy life, and having thoughts like “If I ever get married, then maybe my mother would stop worrying about me so much and let me live my own life without her discouraging me just because I’m her only daughter.” I have to admit, I was naïve and didn’t have no idea what I was thinking because I didn’t really understood myself.

For a while, I realize that I have plenty of time to find a husband other than just being lonely at times. I mean, as I look at married couples who lasted more than a year that gives me the heads up on what all I have to experience when my time comes to be a wife to my future husband. It’s true that I am young but still I need a little more time to prepare myself because that’s what God’s timing for: it’s for me to work on myself. If I don’t learn how to be alone enough to work on myself, I don’t know how I’ll be able to handle any marriage or relationship.

Many say that I’m way too beautiful to be single and not have a husband. But I have to remind myself every day that I’m not single and I’m not taken. I’m simply on reserve for the one who deserves my heart because they say good things take time. I even prayed and asked God to prepare me to be a good Proverbs 31 Woman as He prepares me with a Job 29 Man, which means its best that I pray and make a vow not to be the woman who needs a man. But to be the woman a man needs.

I have my crushes on a few guys but it’s important for me to go by a guy’s heart instead of his looks, voice, and smile. Why? Because it takes an intelligent man to open my mind, a handsome man to open my eyes, a gentleman to open my heart and a Job 29 Man to treat and remind me that I am worth more than rubies. In the meantime, I know my Boaz or my Job 29 Man is looking for me  but he  have to seek God earnestly to find me because I am hidden so deeply in HIS heart so all I have to do now is just have faith and be patient. As much as I want a God-fearing husband, I have to make sure I am virtuous enough to endure the marriage process. But as of right now, I am not fully prepared for it because I still need a little more time to pray and focus on becoming a better woman.

God knows what He’s doing so I am going to continue trust Him with my impossibilities while I’m working on the possibilities.

God is Love,

Mz. Keshia

A BEAUTIFUL Poem from God

My Daughter,
Take a look at yourself in the mirror, and tell me what you see,
You weren’t created in the beauty of the world, you were created in the Beautiful image of ME!
It was I who’ve made everything Beautiful at MY own time,
I’ve given you beauty of a gentle, quiet, which is precious in my sight;
Like my servant, King Solomon said, you are Beautiful and there is no flaw in you,
For you are a virtuous woman that’s more precious than any jewels and that no can compare to you.
Let’s be very clear, Beautiful means so much more than just hair and a pretty face,
It truly means that you’re unique and full my amazing grace;
Everything within you that go much deeper than the softness of your skin,
Are the things that make you Beautiful, both outside and within.
Get real acquainted with the real beauty secrets which I’m giving you,
Use your lip gloss as the fruit of your lips to speak the truth;
Use your mascara, eye shadow, and eyeliner to paint your eyes with stars to shine brightly,
As you butter your body with cocoa and shea butters, you must know that you are dark and lovely.
I’ve anointed your head with hyssop and olive oil so that your hair can grow longer in glory,
Moisturize your touchable, softest hands with pure charity;
As you use your voice for kindness,
Understand what Timothy said about the process of being a modest.
Use your ears for compassion and always use your heart for love,
Because you are the most Beautiful gift from above!
Remember, my daughter, you must always praise me for being wonderfully made,
It doesn’t matter what you’ve done, you are still Beautiful in every way;
As you go in peace, being highly favored, and being successful,
Just know that no matter what, you was always and will always be BEAUTIFUL!!!!
-Father God

How Women Should Be Honored???

Ladies letter to the Gentlemen (2)

From the beginning God had a divine plan for His family. He created a beautiful world and a beautiful young man to inhabit it. The story is told in Genesis 2: *”And God said, ‘It is not good that man should be alone; I will make him a helper comparable to him’ “* (verse 18). Notice God didn’t say He’d make him a helper inferior to him. We as ladies should understand that we are not an afterthought in God’s mind. The first thing God did was put man to sleep. Then He took a bone from his rib:* “Then the rib which the Lord had taken from man He made a woman” *(verse 22). God took a from the man’s side, perhaps to encourage the man to walk beside the woman and keep her near to his heart. Adam proclaimed: “*This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh”* (verse 23). Man and woman were one meaning they are equal beings with different roles.

Remember when I said before about what I was asked why I believe that so many Christian girls date guys or become interested in guys who are not believers, and that my response was simply because they are desperate to get and keep a guy like that regardless how fine he is? Well, here’s a tip. We ladies should be very cautious for the kinds of guys we allow in our lives. Encourage ourselves to hang around only with the kind of men who treat us with the honor and protection that God intended–the kind of men we can one day look up to to as head of our family. When those handsome “devils” come calling, we ladies must keep our eyes and heart on the kind of man who will cover her with love and dignity.
Now, a wise God-fearing male friend of mine kept it real when he said this piece and I want you all to really pay attention to this!! He stated: “Ladies want their mind and body caressed, not molested. Treat them with care, stay committed, and love them unconditionally, and they won’t hesitate to do whatever you want them to do, as long as she’s comfortable at where she resides.”

On that note, keep this in mind: God got us ladies covered when it comes to dealing with a prince (guy and men). He says, “I want you to know that the head of every man is Christ, the head of woman is man, and the head of Christ is God.” (1 Corinthians 11:3)

God is love,

She Who Has Been Forgiven Much, Loves Much

There are times in life that every daughter of the King of kings that has tilted tiaras and crooked crowns that God himself tried to fix. When it comes to forgiving myself and those who have mistreated me, I learned that forgiveness is one of the main test that everybody failed!

I mean, I heard this too many times: “When someone did you wrong, that person takes powers over you. But if you don’t forgive, that person keeps the power.”

Truth is, Jesus loves a good story. He told many stories all the time. But when it comes to the part where Peter got up the nerve to ask, “Master, how many times do I forgive a brother or sister who hurts me?” “Seven! Hardly! Try seventy times seven.” (Matthew 18:21-22).

Our King, Jesus, has forgiven all of us and we all must do the same. I mean, He’ll help us with it. He’s the heart of our contentment. The power to forgive will come from Him. What all we can do now is this borrow His compassion, and spend it all, for the Bible also states that “As God’s chosen people, Holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility,gentleness, and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. (Colossians 3:12-14)

I learned that every girl is an X-girl and some girls have real bad X’s. Others have X’s even worse than those, too. The Christ didn’t seem to mind X-girls, though.

To explain what I mean by an X-Girl is a girl that maybe an X-overeater, X-constant complainer, X-doubter,X-prostitute, or X-exotic dancer. On that note, we all must for a fact that there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. (Romans 8:1)

He talked to them all the time. Look at how Jesus did with the adulteress that was about to be stoned to death by priests and pharisees (John 8:6-12). What I truly love about God and Jesus is that They both forgives what we all leave behind. One of my favorite stories of the Bible is the one where Mary of Bethany washing Jesus’ feet with her tears, dried His feet with her hair, kissed His feet, and anointed them with the perfume (Luke 7:36-38). Jesus spoke to the woman and said, “Daughter, your sins and I know that there are many. I have forgiven you because of the greatness of your love and that your faith has saved you” (Luke 7:40-50).

I can feel Jesus’ hands lifted my hung -down head, looked deeply into my tear-filled eyes, and said,” I forgive your sins.” That lets me know that He doesn’t keep the score and He doesn’t even remember my sins. All because He got a full coverage on me!!!

No matter what life or sins or X’s you leave behind, you are forgiven. Jesus say to you the same” You are saved. Go in peace.

Forgiving someone is easy, but being able to trust them again is totally a different story.
Forgiveness does not equal trust. Trust must be earned back over time.

God is Love,

I’m a GOOD Person!

I always thought that I was a beautiful and good person that has been a blessing to others.
I mean, I have elderly folks that looked up to me, admired me, and inspired by me saying that I am not like the other girls that were: having babies at a young age, high school drop-out, college drop-out, drug addict, and many things like that. But through it all, I felt like I wasn’t pretty or even good enough because I have been violated, bullied, abused, verbally abused, persecuted and many things I have done that I was not so proud of and embarrassed by everything.

But as I grew older, I looked back at how far God has brought me from. All the time I felt unloved and helpless, it was HIM that took care of me and found great favor with HIM because HE loved me so much. I have to admit, I forget to count all my blessings God has given me because I was way too busy adding and multiplying all my problems.

There so many lessons I have learned throughout my life and it all gotten to the point where my life is just a test that I didn’t even study for. Of course there were times when I lost myself but do you know that old spiritual “Amazing Grace”? “I once was lost but now I’m found” I have found Wykeshia and I am so proud of her (me).

Truth is, it’s not just the past made me who I am, it was God. Everything I thought, everything I am is all because of Him! With that in mind, He’s the one who turned all my mess I have made into messages for me to learn, turn all my tests that I have failed into testimonies for me to tell, turn all my trials that I have been through into triumphs for me to succeed, and turn me from a victim into a woman with victory for me to rejoice and be exceedingly glad.

God is Love,

For God’s Love for Me, Myself, & I

I’ve asked myself,
“Keshia, what is there left for you to do when you’re fighting
for the love you’ve prayed for and you feel like it’s not worth fighting for?”
My answer was,”I don’t what to say. I mean, I wanted love, but I’m starting to
feel like love doesn’t want me.”

And then, the spirit of God spoke to me as he gently lifted my chin up with his finger.

Wykeshia, how many times have I told you NOT to worry about love?
I AM LOVE and I DO WANT YOU…FOR MYSELF. I know you’ve been through a lot
and I’ve kept you here. I know it hurts and you’re still hurting but I know that you can survive it.
Even though you’re feel hurting, lonely, afraid, and sad, I AM NOT GIVING UP ON YOU so DON’T YOU DARE GIVE UP ON ME because I have not finished writing your love story yet. I promise you, my sweet, that if you would just hold on to your faith, hold on to your heart and put all your trust in me, you will have a BEAUTIFUL testimony that’s based on YOUR true love story. Believe me! So, if you can, please be patient a little while longer and try not to be discouraged, things will turn out just fine. You’re still BEAUTIFUL and as long as I AM EXISTING, you will ALWAYS be loved. I LOVE YOU, MY PRINCESS!”

Now that I got the message from my FATHER, I am going to spend some quality time loving, dating, and defining the following people who are formed in a threesome along with the MASTER, and their names are ME, MYSELF, & I.